i just found out my ex-byfriend is in jail for two years. go figure i have relationships with all the wierdos.
he robbed a house and didnt want to go to jail so got drunk and stole his grandma's car.
grandtheft auto
dwi
robbery

oh jeeze.

my weekend was uneventful. today im in school, ive got 2 more days then finals, then im done.

same shit, different day.
i got really fucked up yesterday, i guess in vain attempts to feel better about myself. anthony came back yesterday. i talked to sandy yesterday. and i heard from a friend who i thought fell off the face of the earth. it made me happy. thank you, i miss youtoday im hoping to go swimming with steve after school if my mom ( Read more... )

yesterday i wasnt allowed out because my mom is a big flaming whore. i hatemyself so much. im such a little girl, all i do is cry over things. i hate it. for some reason sandy is on my mind right now, could be that she is sitting relatively close to me. she doesnt even care. i hate it. its hurts me. i hate me. i hate it. i dont even want to wake up ( Read more... )

ive felt like writting all day. but im too lazy to pick up a pen and paper to start.

The boy on the wall always waited for me,
And he was always smiling
The teenage death boys
The teenage death girls
And everyone was dancing
Nothing could touch us then
No one could change us then
Everyone was dancing
Nothing could hurt us then
No one could see us

ive never felt so alone before. its like some kind of rude awakening. awakening from what, im not sure ( Read more... )

memorial day weekend. supposed to be out partyinh most of the time but instead i spent it fighting with steve. doesnt that suck for me. im begining to hate life with a passion. i dont even know why i get up in the morning to follow the same routine i do, everyday. and as soon as school ends its going to be the same shit except maybe ill get a job ( Read more... )

time goes by so quickly, it often makes our head spin. when you want time to slow down so you can enjoy it, that seems to be when it moves the fastest. time is such an concept its hard to grasp. anthonys been gone for a week now. school is over in 2 and 1/2 weeks. im dreading summer. i know im going to be alnoe alot of it. not that i mind sitting ( Read more... )

im drowning in my thoughts. there is so much on my mind but i cant seem to find the right words to express how i honestly feel. i miss anothony so much. before he left i didnt hang out with him that much but now its just the idea of the vacant spot he left in my head. he was always a person to have good deep mind stimluating converstations with. i ( Read more... )

i have detention today. but afterwards im not sure what im doing.
me and kendl being retarded. this is what we really do in creative writing.

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