i went through some really tough times these past few weeks. and in the end im guess im stronger, or at least will be. school is becoming too much and dropping out seems more and more of an answer to my problems. i just want to be in jersey ( Read more... )

now that i have relocated into the ghetto on the middle of no where, my diesease is becoming worse. i cant feed it, so therefore i feel like complete and utter shit. nobody can help me now but myself. if i wanted help i would have told somebody and i wouldnt be here today. the pains, the sweats the sore everything, the vomiting.. the sickness. its ( Read more... )

its been so long since ive written in this collection of old memories. the memories hurt and the old friends all are gone. times are once again changing. this are back to the way they were. back with the possesive boyfriend, back to otherthings. Its just a cycle of neverending greif and despair. we dont ever break it but continue it. Another car ( Read more... )

yeah so my life has been the worst it can be. me and steve officially broke up last week. and two days later he was hooking up with someone else. fucking nicole acri. who is fucking 15 years old.. i cant go back out with him now, things are changed, they will never be the same ever. im going to his house tonight to pick up all my shit. i think im ( Read more... )

work hasnt been as bad as i had expected ( Read more... )

tomarrow i start work. i hate it more than life itself ( Read more... )

new years sucked. had to stay home with my parents. ended up drinking most of my moms champagne ( Read more... )

im fucking 18!still grounded.. but im 18 ( Read more... )

everyone wnats me to go to rehab. i know its not going to work and its pointless and stupid. and since i feel that way it wont work because im not open to it.IM NOT GOING. Life is getting a little better. it got much worse before it got any better though. i have to see all these therapists and counselers and drug councilers. it all sucks. i feel ( Read more... )

alright heres the scoop on me. im grounded forever and 7 years. i got drug tested in school and since i had been doing extremely bad shit im grounded for life. also im going to be suspended for 7 days. fuck school. im going to have to do community service to cut my suspension down to seven days. it is really 10. ill be suspended into christmas ( Read more... )