wo yi kanjyan ta, wo jyou bugausyingle...

there was no doubt in my mind how lucky i am. all week i have been bathing in this new found happiness. it envelopes me and dissolves all fear and anxiety i've built throughout the last few years. i find myself bragging to myself- testing my courage on situations which would have certainly crushed me just 6 months ago. finally i have stepped far ( Read more... )

BABY! i was wondering. if someones chin is to protrude grossly from underneath an ill placed shirt. why wouldn't you tell them? or pull the shirt down? the person might have thought they were saving you from eye moustaches, when in reality they were creating a chin visual to complete dissatisfaction.

such an awkward amount of time to wait. i've finished my dinner and cleaned my plate. myspace is on the fritz again, so my usual brain duller has failed me in my time of greatest need. i could, of course, finish painting that last coat i have been putting off for two weeks. that is a great impossibility, for i am a triumphant procrastinator. oh ( Read more... )

wipe the s'keet off your mug, b'yatch! I was so n'cheekd last night I woke up in the lion enclosure at the zoo. I have no clue how I got there...

once on a rock i found we were beached. held tightly in your arms we whispered lies to the sea. i convinced myself of the unease in sincerity. you pulled my body up and away from its gravity. and i thought it was love. and i believed in our curse. but i knew not who i was. i never was yours ( Read more... )

wo buhwei shwo junggwo hwa--ke--wo meiyou chyan, ni you meiyou? meiyou.
ni ai fagwo! ta ye gau, ye haukan. ta shr shei? ching ta hwa yijang hwar.
isn't he a frenchman? hau shr hau, keshr--ta hen ai chang geer.
wo hai buhwei shwo junggwo hwa ne. wo dzoule...

although i didn't share my night eating mint chocolate chip ice cream on the floor with bahia, the state of the union was just the same. maybe not as interactive--see: shouting at the television. instead my father and i just stared dumbly at george bush junior's horrendously large ears. quote bob trexler, "the cartoons were dead on ( Read more... )

last night was a needed release from my self-importance. i developed a serious search & rescue mission that landed me in colchester, ct. upon finding my dear dawn- we proceeded to drive aimlessly to talk about how trapped we have become in our own lack of independence. it was nice to feel that comfort a friend brings. our situations mirror each ( Read more... )

love. the word i can't get out of my head. i want to say it all the time, but i hate speaking words i can't define. clarity is coming in tablespoons. it feels as though for the last three years i have been trying to dive into the shallow end of the same pool. the damage is obviously irreversible, but was it love? i felt it explode in my chest and i ( Read more... )