i am deprived. i am unmatched. i am follwed. my heart is not torn, yet maliciously torn to shreds like so many splinters and shards of a picture frame smashed in fury.  my moment...my moment....awaits. a bed of needles cradles my head until that moment. i expect nothing and everything in large amounts. the vortex is spinning, awaiting my plunge ( Read more... )

i keep saying it's complicated and that i'm confused, but really the answer is simple;

i am not happy.

 Damn me, I let my perogies get cold. Oh well. Made em meself i did. thas right.

Has been a great week. now facebook knows it. i <3 my family ( Read more... )

It feels like I had more to write about when i had more friends.. where is it heading, this "rest of my life"? I am happy, and quite satisfied, however it seems to me that there is something I'm missing. Maybe it's just that this feeling never really goes away. Maybe I'll never really feel totally and fully in control of my life until much much ( Read more... )

So we've officially got a new place over on Franklyn Road at the Bristol Apartments. So excited on that. We move in sometime on or before May 1st. It's a little smaller than our current place but it's off of a main road, its the top floor so we'll actually have a view and the best part about it...we're right across the street from Ben Lee park!! ( Read more... )

dear lord this place is sooo effing messy ( Read more... )

tee hee . my mom just called. Then after we spoke about our easter plans, she called back ( Read more... )

 fuck man. Im so totally emotionally drained. I literally cannot handle this anymore. My hormones are raging, i've got 20 extra pounds and a pot belly, my joints all ache, my feet and ankles are swollen, i can't sleep,  i pee too much, and i'm always too fucking tired to do anything. I fucking hate this so much right now!!! i'm sick of being ( Read more... )

I was a grumpy today.  I h8 that everything is so much harder for me to do. I had a breakdown last night. Adam made me ice chippies and hugged me. it was comforting. 
My engagement ring doesn't fit me anymore. Stupid swelling of hands and feet. Now i'm wearing it on my pinky. 
So much dishes....UGGHHHH!! someone do it for me. NOW.

i'm boring today.

 Jeremiah was a bullfrog  *da da dun* was a good friend of mine *da da dun* i never understood a single word he said, but i helped him drink his wine.

Bancouber on Tuesday for yet ANOTHER ultrasound. If i have to drink one more ounce of water to keep my bladder full, i may just prematurely deliver! Sheesh. I should be doing lots and lots of dishes ( Read more... )