It's been a while, but i'm coming back.
i've pulled out twenty eight individual hairs on my head in the last hour trying to get through this.

I want to live in newmarket right now and for dan to be alive and for it to be warm out and we could just go meet by the river

Im feeling weird and triggered.
I had such a strange day yesterday, and given other circumstances, it made me feel so odd.

Ive finally left my job but i dont feel free. I just feel afraid that i wont be able to support myself. My job was (reluctantly) relatively understanding about my mental health issues that prevented me from working 5 days and ( Read more... )

Today i didnt do anything but thats okay

i feel like people always tell me it's so easy to ask for help ( Read more... )

Purgatory. In everything.

Fuck.

using 'beautiful' and 'lovely ( Read more... )

can I trust my habitual mind or am i a different person beyond those habits of thoughts and actions and feelings and reactions?

I'm a a more true person when my brain is full and swollen and I experience things differently and everything feels different.

Im not trying to make this about me but i just havent been the same since you left.
I miss you so much and all i can think about is how much i regret.
I wish i paid more attention to you and spent more time with you and came to see you in the hospital when i was in london and hugged you goodbye longer and listened to more music and acted less weird ( Read more... )