a little lost, vacous in thought, overwhelmed in emotion. a chemical imbalance that soon will pass. it will pass soon

sometimes i am the one lost in grand central station and you are the one looking for me

hey where are you?

here i am... i think

feburary 14th has come and is leaving soon. the florists are fatigued. hallmark met it's annual quota for the year,and the girlfriends are three pounds heavier then they were 12 hours ago. i am left with conflicting beliefs of love and commercialism. so in all honesty I X Love

hhappy valentines day all

well the day was un- warm. dissapointing but, to be expected. I had a frantic day at the mall, trying to choose a suiting gift for a friend you no longer correspond with, all the silly nostalgia brings uneasy feelings into my stomach. Also, ive become quite aquainted with the small population at my school, large crowds make me nervous, everyone ( Read more... )

its fucking freezing, praise allah for blankets. it's good to see gael, and its good to have a glass of wine, ingrid is finally installing my own personal bed. praise allah for that too. happy apple is soon, talked to moshe lastnight. he was happy. for the first time in too long he is doing well, that makes me feel at ease, i miss having a ( Read more... )

OH THE JOYS OF HANGOVERS. souldv'e had some water last night, my love hate relationship with vodka persists

went to get pie with gael and ingrid. had alot of "water" i'm so cocky about not needing a chaser. it's a little sick. my pie was disgusting, who the hell wants bannanna cream. GAH. tasted like poison. then at ingrids i took all theese provacotive pictures thinking i might look hot or something. i just looked like an idiot but oh well vanity is ( Read more... )

a bowl of oatmeal tried to stare me down, and won

i slept the day away, and now i feel bitter. now nothing sounds appealing, maybe a walk by the bluff.

iv'e become accustomed to sleeping in ingrids bed. not in one of those "look at me i sleep with women trashy statements" i just have grown acustomed to company while i drift. and this all comes aimlessley attatched to the frightening fact that im a hopeless romantic, which helps not in my augmenting interest in companionship. well it should come in ( Read more... )

so was there an issue that i ever cared about enough to research. well. no not really ( Read more... )