sometimes i feel like i have let people ruin my life. i've let them walk all over me. i've let them control my life -like my characteristics were just fader switches on a board and everything good that i am has been faded down and off. I consider myself a very independant person. I do the things that i want to do and do what makes me happy. I just ( Read more... )

I needed to take the night to let everything sink in. Yesterday was just too perfect. It's always the little things in this life (which in my world are actually quite large) that make me the happiest. My only wish is that my memory could store more details than it ends up storing. Here are the details of my day however ( Read more... )

This week has been really damn amazing. I don't like to brag about things, but I am just gloating and soo excited that I had to post. no one reads this anyway, so it's okay for me to do it ( Read more... )

I've been watching your world from afar ( Read more... )

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I was driving home today. I had the windows down, the air on a subtle level, and the music blarring...and such good tunes! and I had a moment....of complete panic. All of a sudden I realized that I would be home for good in a little under 2 weeks...i would go to work 5 days a week, wake up at 6:00 am, drive a half hour, work 8 hours, drive a half ( Read more... )

Phrases that are getting old (fast ( Read more... )

My life has come down to one of two things. i either a) have had a severe learning disability all my life that has just now decided to present itself or b) have just been incredibly sheltered for the past 19 years of my life. I'm not entirely sure which one would be a bigger problem ( Read more... )

All i have to say is, i am not a fan of life right now.

it's just too much

The convent becomes less and less bearable as the days continue on. I spent last night in mad fits, tossing, turning, sweating, crying. I love my little cubby hole on the floor, except during times like this. It was so ungodly hot (me without a fan) that i was kept up until 6 in the morning. It got to the point where i was crying because i was ( Read more... )