didnt get to see manda today. but i kinda expected that, its ok tho. im glad i got a lot of things off my chest, and i think i understand why things have been so shitty. i feel much better now tho. i want a cape... like a really cool, fancy cape. ive realized i dont have as much to talk about when im in a good mood. :-/

sickning. i dont understand anything that is going on with... anything. i feel like i dont matter to anyone anymore. i think im fucking things up. i just dont know.

hopefully things will level out.
i get calls from all the wrong people. or am i dialing the wrong numbers?
oh well.

omfg its cold eh? i need to take a shower before work... i dont have very much time. my head hurts hella bad too. at least i got ice cream. i think i need more sleep, im not feelin well lately and i think i might be from a lack of sleep or something. i hope i dont die!!!* "make every night a family game night" i had a really really cool sounding ( Read more... )

things have been very strange these past few days. im not really sure why ive been in the strange mix of lonely-depression and content, but its kinda lame. i have also been sick for almost 3 weeks now, runny nose/cough... i hate being sick. i miss manda, i feel like.... *sigh* i dunno. i wish i didnt have problems. blame it on the canadians. great ( Read more... )

i hate this day with a seering passion ( Read more... )

i must apologize for the lack of an update for yesterday. i was nowhere near a computer cus i was out in the boondocks at trenees house. so, enjoy a good song ( Read more... )

i hate december... shitty month if you ask me. everything seems to go horribly wrong this time of year. xmas is a pain in the ass, lost a lot this tim last year too. but whatever. ive been whining a lot today, sorry to my loyal reader(s?). i doubt the plurality. i missed manda horribly untill about 7ish, i got to go to shopko(braking a law!!!) and ( Read more... )

I think i'm drunk enough to drive you home now ( Read more... )

i think all this journal is ever really gonna be is about me going to work... and on the lucky occasion that i get to get out of the house and hang out with people. nothing really special today, just sat around and hung out with brandon and jay. crazy kids they are. pink nerds are really good! i didnt get to see manda today which made it a not so ( Read more... )

today was a pretty damn good day i must say. work at 9, got off early at 3 and hung out with manda at fun old target! then we went to the bowling alley and met joe, he seems like a cool guy. then we went to the "show" met casey (again, i bought a hand!), jeremy and taylor. they all seem really cool, just a lil crazy but everyone is. the show was ( Read more... )