This is not where I wanted to be when I was twenty. I am not satisfied with myself at all. I have accomplished nothing.

Today a little girl dropped her sucker in the parking lot. She started to tear up and said, very softly, "Mommy, where is my sucker." Her mother said, "I will get your sucker for you." She picked it up off the ground and stuck it straight in her mouth. "There mommy cleaned it for you." Disgusting or not, that is real love.

Yesterday was one of the best days I have had in a while, at least for the most part. Sunshine alone would have been enough to make my day, but I was very fortunate. Not only did Nicholas want to hang out, but was also down with picking up Monica and Emily, and going back to his house so she can play with the kitty. Her first word was kitty, ( Read more... )

It is now official. I hate working at Meijer. I would find a new job but I just don't care enough to do that. Everywhere else sucks just as much. I might as well just become a drug dealer or steal cars like Monica's stupid brother that I hate right now.

Grandma: Watch yourself, don't trip over anything in the kitchen. You don't want to break your leg ( Read more... )

I took a long, long nap today. I am listening to posi rap. Monica is coming home today and we are having a sleepover in her new room. I love it.

i love nicholas oooooo

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A girl walked up to me at school and said, "You are the drummer's girlfriend!!" I am pretty certain that I existed as Amy Straka for over nineteen years before Nick even started to play the drums, and that he and I existed for about a year and a half before this band even existed, and even for a while preceding the band before this one. I pretty ( Read more... )

why start another journal? for fun of course.

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