i talked to jason last night. i had to. it was eating away at me. i said flat out, "the reason that I havent dated anyone out at school is because I have feelings for you." we only got to talk for like 5 minutes about it before his coworker came out and he completely changed the subject to avoid talking about it. sat there for a good 45 minutes ( Read more... )

I dont know what is wrong with me. I have never felt so alone or sad all the time. It is just lately. Like the past few days. I havent talked to almost any of my friends back home. I have been skipping lunch so i can sleep. I sleep all the time. Like the other day, I slept 7 hours at night, then I slept thru lunch for like 2 hours then I slept ( Read more... )

So scheduling for my classes next semester is fucking sucking right now. I figured out this semester that I am a night owl, and morning classes are not my thing. So I am trying to not have any classes before 11 next semester. And I am trying to fill my gen ed requirements. I dont have my schedule set in stone right now, but what I am looking at is ( Read more... )

Listening to the strums ( Read more... )

My dreams tell me so much. About what I really want. Who I really want. Who I really love. Last night, I swear I had a dream so real that while I was having it, I could feel myself actually smiling ( Read more... )

So last night, I went to a frat party. It was sigma tau gamma, the frat that matt, Elyse’s boy thing, got initiated into. It was Matt, Elyse, Eric (matt’s friend), and me. Everyone got really drunk except for Eric. He was the designated driver. I had a good time. I made out with this guy Chicago. He had oh so soft lips. And he told me I was a good ( Read more... )

Okay, since i have been skimping on the updating, here's the fat and the skinny of it ( Read more... )

Why do I have this thing. I hardly ever write in it. I have stuff to write about. I just preoccupy my time with other things. Like the MSC. But I will write in here this weekend. In case anyone cares. But for now, I am going to bed. And BTW I think I like this michelle staying at jason's thing. Even though he is toxic for her, and she also had rudy ( Read more... )

So in the time between my last post and this one, we had a little scare here at CNU. Elyse thought she was pregnant. She actually might have been but she took an emergency contraceptive that would kill anything that had grown in her womb. We have been waiting for her period for almost a week and she told me today she has never been so happy to be ( Read more... )

This blog is less for my home friends and more for my new friends and personal stuff. I dont want anyone at home to judge me for what I do at school. Because we all know that when someone first goes off to college, one of the first things they do it something stupid. Whether it is getting super drunk at a frat party, hooking up with some random ( Read more... )