so as i cut others out, and revolve almost everything around this one particular topic-- person-- computer-- phone.. i notice that others are getting the shaft, and begging for the time that i refuse to make... and give ( Read more... )

so i think in the state of mind, of a rational being, and i laugh. the though of what i crave and want and the obvious location in which it rests, in a sense discourages me and drives me as well. that feeling of pure desire and the need to have something so fast, that it nearly translates into the opposite, diminishing into thin air. i approach ( Read more... )

time, it all relapses into the invisible nonsense of time. ive become acustom to ignoring the importance of venting, announcing and becoming aware off all that is around me. ive continued to blast my mind through the dimensions of reality, and here iam, penting it all against a computer ( Read more... )

all the flowers singing deep on earth, and all the brids sing happily, and we'll be together once again my love. living without you youve only broke my heart. i can feel not a alone. i can admit it i can shame it i can moan it i can gut it i can taste it. always hearing the same shit. i can make it dangerous too- i can make it there ( Read more... )

so it fails to suprise me. life. though i stand in the doorway of contradiction, i look at that reflection in which states dire need of help. i consider my options... yet i refuse to remember them. i stare blindly at this square object, introducing myself to the public, and the desperation of what lies beneath ( Read more... )

so why waste my time with the disasterous, inviting myself into nothing more than mere heartache and disspointment. ive decided to dedicate the rest of everything [whatever that may be] to anything, but that. them. ill disguise my thoughts and appeal as though i an disgusted in a way of vainity and disorientation. no longer is there need to ( Read more... )

the evening closes like this ( Read more... )

i dont necessarily stare at my phone intentionally. yes, i admit, i am waiting-- not waiting, but wondering. wondering while i wait. what is there to be expected? here rest Friday night-- the bars, football, and poker. failing to communicate with that entire bottle of wine that i intentionally left behind- i just hope, and [wait] impatiently ( Read more... )

satisfaction. at least to that point in which you are unable to move forward or backwards. im content in the way things are heading, and going. where there at ( Read more... )

I know its raining, baby. im stripped of all my pride. I stand here at your door, sick of all the lies. let me come inside. i couldnt see myself. the rumors filled with silence. a strange man kissed me. a tattoo in his eyes. forget about the past. forget about the guilt. im going back to the house that love built. i need to remember, what i ( Read more... )