So I tell myself on a daily basis, that I am indeed content with the standards that apply to my life at the moment. Im not necessarily unsatisfied, i suspose im just a little discouraged. I know that life is what one makes of it, and if i am to be unsatisfied with what is currently going on in mine, i can easially change everything- the ( Read more... )

So having said, in a sense.. what it is that ive wanted to say for so long now- i sit here feeling releaved with this unidentifiable stamina that lurks in my mind and creeps throughout the totality of my insides. I figured out the true essance of what it is to be ugly. I speak of no physical attritubutes, but instead of the mental stability that ( Read more... )

I know you think that i should'nt love you ( Read more... )

I've learned to deal with the obvious. I've grown to understand and move, on for investing so much time into something that is merely a possibility of failure- in one's sense, is utterly ridiculous. I could just say fuck it, and give in to the thought that occupied my mind daily.. then. I could just not care, and risk it all, not that there is ( Read more... )

Waking up everday thinking of the other.. falling asleep every night dreaming of the other ( Read more... )

So many times others have approached me with a question that I have found myself thinking, as well ( Read more... )

as i look back and read the past entry's from some time ago, i have the strong need to delete so many of them, lots of them~ though instead although the thought makes me cringe, i remind myself that i did indeed feel the way i did on those particular pages.. and by deleting, i would not be forgetting nor erasing, just clicking. i will allow the ( Read more... )

so i find myself constantly astonished by others behaviors. sure, its all common sense, in some sense, to avoid the obvious and prenatured pain of the ignorant and disrespectful. i sit here, tired of trying. tired of trying that consists of more than just me.. myself and the insides ( Read more... )

an unforgetable thanksgiving. unepected visitors.. bi-polar family, strangers and a horribly played game of pool.. go figure ( Read more... )

i sit here .. and i feel so stupid. i allowed myself to feel-- feel for someone whom i dont know, cant touch and am unable to see. for the first time i felt as though i was sure of something. i dont know what to think- how to think, or as to why tears are streaming down my face as this exact moment ( Read more... )