P.S.- what part of my demise was childish, to you? I hope you enjoyed the game. i spent too much of today hoping for something unrealistic. something I don't even want. I thought I wanted to know you again, for a minute. I should have known that wasn't right. I should have known by the sick feeling i got when i saw you. you saw it, too. you saw me ( Read more... )

dear dillon, i have two xangas. one i even frequent!
swallowingowntongue15 and
meinfehler

hey, I will write you as soon as i get my shit together. and since that could be a hundred years, probably sooner.

dear dillon, since I know you don't read my comments to your comments, I'm posting an entry just for you.

I think about you a lot, and i sure think it's an aweful shame we don't talk no mo. there were an unfortunate mishap last week, and I broke up with RW. I started writing you a letter only a few minutes before I read this comment you left, and ( Read more... )

I didn't think this would be so hard. I may break up with RW. the event is bringing up the fact that the feelings do exist, and are real, but that the fact is not enough. not anymore. I wish it were because I didn't want this pain for RW, but i didn't anticipate this pain for me, either. It is definitely a loss i will feel.

RW got me flowers to celebrate the completion of our termm papers. they died before they bloomed. Is it a sign?

I can't avoid it anymore. the less I walk on eggshells, the more guilty I become.

today, I did a horrible thing on accident.

I picked my teeth with your picture.

I will remember you Angelica Mena

i was elected prom princess

Is done her prom shopping, are you?

"but don't you think that there are better things you could be doing for your 18th birthday then getting high?"

"what do you mean?"

"like, things at least equally enjoyable"

"well, like, a stream going through the woods is totally groovy"