Please, please believe that I'm sorry.

You have no idea how much I'm hurting right now.

You know what?

I'm scared shitless at the prospect of having the real world at my feet. Uni's all over this year. And that's it. Done. Finished.

I'm out on my own, without Uni as a security blanket.

Shit. 6 months. That's it.

Fuck moral reasoning.

If this week would just fuck off, I'd be feeling a lot better.

You can't see past the childishness of this whole situation, can you? You're so fucking blind. And you know what, I'm done with trying to patch things up. Rot in hell bitch.

I like staying up late, watching time pass before my eyes, and not doing anything productive - productivity isn’t all that important to me when I know that there’s nothing to be done. I like it when it’s peaceful, and all I can hear outside are the noises the crickets make, and the birds, and my dog snoring outside my bedroom window. I love the ( Read more... )

This wasn’t what I wanted at all, but if this is the game we have to play for a while, then so be it. If we have to dance around in circles and pretend that the other doesn’t exist for a while, then so be it. If we have to play snakes and ladders, and endure the rises and ultimate falls for a while, then I guess that’s Ok too. If we have to invest ( Read more... )

 
Hurt. The tears you shed cut like glass, like frost against a fiery slick. What is this alien emotion? You fear to tread waters of the unfamiliar. You fear to let yourself feel. You’re scared that this will consume you; swallow you whole and take over your entire being. You’re in pain. You cry out for love and affection but you’re starving. If ( Read more... )

2007/2008 Reflections/Future

1 Was 2007 a good year for you?
Good isn't really an expressive word. To me, it's kind of mediocre. But I guess that's what 2007 was full of, mediocrity. Mostly aimed at myself. In a sense, Uni gave me pretty decent marks considering, and I guess I learned a lot whilst on placement. I guess more recent experiences have ( Read more... )

Ok, so it's been a while since I've posted anything of substance, alas facebook and myspace have sucked all the ethos out of me ( Read more... )

So, I'm back. I haven't written anything in months, yet somehow this piece wasn't as difficult as I had anticipated ( Read more... )

I haven't written anything worthwhile in wuite a long time, so I'm a little rusty. But for old times sake ( Read more... )