What am I doing? I really don't think I have any clue anymore. If I wasn't stuck in a lease I would be collecting this weeks paycheck, packing up my car and driving home. All I really need right now is a hug from someone who actually cares and a good friend to talk with. I feel like I'm surrounded by people who don't know me or get me and ( Read more... )

Well I think I'm going to start writing on this thing again. Looking back at all my posts from college I really do think it helped me release a little, and it feels good to look back and read old entries and laugh or cry or just feel proud because of how far I've come ( Read more... )

Ok so I last wrote in this about 8 months ago, and everything in my life has changed...EVERYTHING ( Read more... )

I cried today. It came out of nowhere. I had just gotten back from having drinks with a friend (and no I wasn't drunk). I went online when I got home and went on Facebook because I'm still mildly obsessed. There were a couple things written from friends that made me feel nice...like they really miss me being in their lives, cause lord knows I ( Read more... )

Well its been like a few months since I updated this so I suppose now is a good time. My life has definitely changed a bit since my last update. I took my last set of classes at CMU in a crazy 6 week rush to finish and it almost killed me. I lived without sleep and being completely over whelmed with school and stress for almost the entire time ( Read more... )

Once again I have to deal with all of my friends leaving me to go home for the summer and I'm not very happy about it. It sucks even worse this year because we won't all be coming back, in fact I won't even be back in the state for who knows how long. I'm gonna miss my roomies and friends, YY19, the couch, and the past 2 years of fun (even when ( Read more... )

Well I'm still amazed at how fast the time is flying. Tonight at about 1:30am April 18th it will be 1 year since I first met Bruce and my whole life changed. We have our ups and downs and fights and happy times, we go months without seeing each other, and this road we're on just never seems to end. I'm very excited though because he's finally ( Read more... )

Well its almost the end of one very big, crazy, fun, unpredictable chapter of my life, but will it have a happy ending? I'm excited because I'm almost done with school, but terrifyingly sad that I won't be able to see my amazing friends and roommates anymore. I've known Sharp all 4 years, Nana 3 years, and Kelsey and Viz for 2 years. I've lived ( Read more... )

Well spring break is over, and now its back to the hell that is school. I had a good time visiting Bruce I missed him so much, I need to see him and kiss his face and wake up next to him, I just hated having to leave him, it never gets any easier. Though I missed leaving him I did not miss leaving Colorado, as beautiful as it is there, I just can ( Read more... )

I was in a very reflective mood today. People were talking about spring break plans and such and I couldn't help to think about where I was in my life this time last year. All I can say is that this time last year was the best time of my life and oh how I miss it ( Read more... )