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we're out in the city and you're dead in the park, catching flower petals full of questions, and i'm taking your hand but we're not going home because you're too happy and someone's crying in this city. just not here. there has to be someone who feels like me, only they can cry and i can't. all i wanted was to not want this. there has to be a place ( Read more... ) -
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i created this community may 5th, 2009. 41 journal entries full of bits a writing showing the ups and downs in my life, in my style of writing. i am very obviously at a low these days and i find it very hard to piece words together in a way that i actually enjoy ( Read more... ) -
how pretty.
every time i am reminded of the amount of sad people in this world, i feel very astonished and wonderfilled. and i wish that pain and hurt and disappointment or just that fucking ache that builds under your skin weren't such common occurances. but they are. and it gets to me, every time. -
reality of a reality.
sometimes i'd like to scream, "i'm right here," but even if i screamed it, you still wouldn't hear because you're too caught up in your own despair. there is no room for me. and that's okay. nothing lasts forever. no one's around forever, not even me. -
d i s m a n t l e
there are days when i feel like i'll never be able to write again. like i've lost all my romance and adventure. nothing sounds right because everything's all dulled down and what happened? my writing wasn't great before but you know. there was something ( Read more... ) -
hi, my name is
and i don't even know who i am anymore. there's such a big difference between who i want to be and who i am. i've been me for too long. when is my birthday, what is my name. i would recreate myself if i could. but changing who you are isn't as easy as changing your favorite color. i can't wake up in the morning and tell myself that today, i'm going ( Read more... ) -
until you hold my hand.
maybe it's foolish of me. but sometimes i like to believe in miracles. sometimes i like to take a step back and then run forward and try for that 1 ( Read more... ) -
" i will race you to the waterside "
okay, you caught me. i'm not as great or strong as i pretend to be. i'm a mess and those words that pass so easily between my lips are lies that i can never ever shrug off. i am more romantic and whimsical than small waves and no goodbyes. maybe i do care a world more than i let on. but i don't know how else to be. i'm afraid that if i try to say ( Read more... ) -
dandelion secrets, part 1.
do you think i can do it? live forever, that is.
maybe in a couple centries. but it still wouldn't be you that would live forever. there will be clones and cyclops to protect the clone-yous.
whatever, you wouldn't be able to live forever either. not without me and i don't say anything because it's true. -
earth hour. (8:30PM local time)
and we have these bridges and planes when we were the ones that drove each other apart. and we have these stupid television specials about the largest land marks, a constant greed about what is better and what is eye catching and what is beautiful when we could be looking at the sea.