she's right, you know.

you didnt sleep, you didnt leave my side.

he told me why, anyway.  he told me I was too good for it, that I had always been better than that. That the principles and ideals that they strived for I already had, and the people they try to be is the person I am. or was. Why I don't feel like I get all that much out of it. Why I'm always questioning what I'm doing there, and if I'm being ( Read more... )

oh ok, lisa ( Read more... )

woah, unchartered territory. nervous, skittish, new territory. ok so not completely new, but new to who I am now. and I don't know if that me is cut out for this, I don't seem very good at it anymore. I'm just very guarded.

ok and scared. when I care about something I'm afraid it will go away.

its funny the way things work out.  when you finally stop fighting and let yourself....

fall.

who knows where you'll land.

Doesnt it feel like just everythings going away. the center of my teenage infatuation has died of a drug overdose this afternoon. it doesnt matter that I never met Heath Ledger.  I hate the thought that he will be remembered as an actor who died too young with a brilliant career ahead of him, rather than the reason I would watch 10 things I hate ( Read more... )

scenario: 
                   sister's boyfriend will inform you that he will bring breakfast to your door, but only after it has been delivered to sister first.
                                         ...ok?
                   sister and boyfriend will fight over the purchase of irish cream. . .
                   sister and boyfriend will ( Read more... )

remember when it rained
felt the ground and looked up high and called your name 
remember when it rained
in the water I remain...running down.

Silent night. I've silenced it. its silent because I willed it so. They are gone because I told them to go ( Read more... )

I have plans. I wonder if thats presumptious. Part of me will be shut off so that more productive parts can be...productive. at least thats the plan.  The only anticipated glitch is that I won't be able to turn it back on again...that scares me a little.

I'm in a mood, which I'm told is very like me.  a fleece blanket and my irish mittens ( Read more... )