I am so up and down it scares me. it scares me.

and its december. . .where is my life going? its december of my junior year in college. . .am I even close to where I thought I'd be. My friends are slipping through my hands along with my chances of having a functional relationship, both of which I just dont have the time for. isnt that awful not ( Read more... )

you reap what you sow. most definately.

"I wonder if people love like that anymore."

bri said as we finished A Very Long Engagement. And I realized I was thinking the same thing. it would be nice to believe that they do. . .that I do. things get so trite here. . .and you forget that there are some people waiting for the person they love most to come back home alive.

 why am I battling my affinities?

I want to be like amelie. i want to be creative and caring for people and living to live.  everything is so rushed. when really, im happy popping bubble wrap. im happy anyway, i just wish i had more time to realize it.

 just tell me im pretty. it will work. and i hate that it will but what is so god damn wrong with showing someone that youre into them and that they make you smile and that you think theyre pretty. im tired of having to gather insinuated and assumed ideas of what someone thinks of me, when really what the hell is so hard. is it that it will make ( Read more... )

harry potter (the first one) and my parents and my cat and blankets and....home.  even if im just here for a night. . .i wish i was little again sometimes. 
I get nostalgic but I'm so grateful to be where I am. meaghans going to ireland and I feel a little sad that im not doing it all over again...but I did it. and I wouldnt have changed anything. ( Read more... )

I finally crashed after 96 hours of not stopping. and the 3 hour nap i just took has been more consecutive sleep than ive gotten in a while. ..although all this sleep has rushed to my brain and given me a headache. But im comfortably groggy and curled up under sheets and im done with all tests and major projects this week and having a movie night ( Read more... )

what if i had been born on a day in march ( Read more... )

Weeks absolutely fly.  I'm singing evanescence out loud and it must be terribly annoying. I think im on the verge of hurting a nice person again.  My life is pleasantly but at times excruciatingly busy.