So I went out with my irish dancing girls last night who are first years...and I couldn't help but feel a little old.  They were so excited to be in the club, talking about the guys they liked and sharing their secrets with me. . .and it felt so innocent and I felt just a little out of place, even though it was fun to be around.  Does one year make ( Read more... )

I'm afraid I'm ruining my life because I'm being irresponsible and I'm letting things go that I've cared about so much but I just can't hold onto anymore. I miss my mom and my sisters so much, but its so hard to only be able to talk to them when theyre on skype. I miss having someone to talk to about everything and I realized that when Kusse came. ( Read more... )

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'smiling through denial, my specialty ( Read more... )

I have become the worst version of myself. And its no one's fault but my own.

I'm sorry.

I had one of those epic dreams last night...it was like braveheart meets some adventure movie on a ship. At one point, everyone was getting killed so I had to pretend I was dead and people buried me, but the grave was shallow so I escaped...then I was trapped in some prison with other people about my age and I kept trying to escape...I remember ( Read more... )

Today was perfect...theres something about the irish air. walking into town listening to songs that make me happy in search of step dancing paraphanelia...it was sunny and lovely and refreshing. And I talked to all of my roomates on skype...it made me miss qu, but hearing them talking and laughing all at once was like I never left, I was right back ( Read more... )

Ever feel like even the world is too small? It really sucks ( Read more... )

Living by yourself makes you entirely self-absorbed...it is upsetting and shameful, and as much as I enjoy the privacy of my own room and bathroom, its times like these where I appreciate the convenience of roomates. When you come home from class or an outing or errands you have someone to greet, vent what was on your mind, and just be around...you ( Read more... )