Once upon a time, a man sat down at his computer, typing away, trying to remember something he had forgotten, or perhaps regain a skill he had once had, but had long since lost ( Read more... )

I’ve got a lot going on these days. On a personal level, I have immediate survival-level crises that I must resolve as soon as possible, so that I can have secure affordable housing in which I’m capable of functioning on a daily basis. Because many of my basic daily self-care skills are profoundly impaired by my autism, I need a lot of help to take ( Read more... )

I've always had an intense affinity for the theoretical.  In my teens and early twenties, I wanted to be a theoretical physicist.  I felt certain, at the time, that it was my ineluctable destiny to formulate the ultimate Theory of Everything; it was simply Going to Happen one day.  Although I eventually had to release my attachment to that belief ( Read more... )

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Things have been going pretty well for me, lately.  I haven’t posted so much introspective stuff on here recently because I’ve been busy going out and doing things and being active and living life, for a change, so that’s where a lot of my energy has been going.

As I feel capable of doing more, and build my confidence in my ability to independently ( Read more... )

The trajectory of my development was such that my infancy and pre-schooling years were spent in an uncommonly safe, nurturing environment, followed by a few years that were still safe, but detached rather than nurturing, where I was mostly left to my own devices, then an abrupt shift into a world that I was entirely unprepared for, where safety was ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I think the issue isn't so much that we autistics have a deficit in our ability to communicate, but that neurotypicals, non-autisitics, are more successful at deluding themselves into thinking that communication is actually taking place, most of the time.

Throughout humanity, from mind to mind, brain to brain, person to person, we have ( Read more... )

The last few days, I seem to have been physically moving in more "autistic-looking" ways, spontaneously.  Staggering gait, odd arm movements, flapping... when I'm alone in my apartment, pacing, working something out, and outdoors too, when I'm walking from place to place, making my way through the world.

I imagined it was because I was getting in ( Read more... )

A few months back, I was trying to help a loved one through a rough day, and fumbling for some words that felt important for both of us to hear.

"You see, the thing is," I ventured, finding the words as I went along, "because our brains are wired differently, we don't really naturally speak the same sort of language as most people.  The way we ( Read more... )

All right, fine. I've gone ahead and done The Twitter and The Facebook things. I am now part of Modern Internet Society.

(*shudder*)

--Matt