january ( Read more... )

different year, same shitty situations i keep putting myself in. living a double life, the house with cassie and abby didn't work, of course. thinking about moving again so i can cut my double life back down to one, if only for a month or two. running away from what's good for me and letting myself be distracted by shit that's bad for me. living in ( Read more... )

tonight will be the night i get back on my retarded weight loss plan of starving myself again! they should really tell this shit to girls in middle school. maybe then life won't be so retarded if you're fat and stupid and don't know how you got there! starve yourself, little ones! it makes eeeeeeevvvveeeeerrryyytttthhhiiiiinngg better.

ha!

i'm tired of blahblahblah this should have happened, but it didn't but i wish it did blahblahbldjnkjbnrtj. i'm an idiot. and the problem is not that there needs to be more, it's that i keep looking for shit to remind me of it! so fuck it. i've been kindasortaalittlebit trying to get a hold of him and nothing. so fuck the mp3 player. fuck the ( Read more... )

my sanity's slow downfall on this particular night would be because of the pictures. i've been going through photobucket, and after the collage of me and alison and our incredibly fearless and amazing time as best friends, came seattle. seattle for the first time. i can feel it, it's underneathe my skin. i was starting to become afraid that it ( Read more... )

i don't know!

i love that i have random spurts of inspiration for life getting better and everything atleast having a sunny side even though as soon as i put down the piece of paper and go on to the next thing, i forget all my previously made goals and just get pushed down by whatever is going wrong next. it's like, what's the point? why do i keep building it up ( Read more... )

happy birthday to me. almost.

indoorumbrella ( Read more... )

life is just really, really bad.