I wish I knew why I was so negative all the time. Perhaps it's because very few things ever really go my way. I'm spoiled as fuck, anything material I want, I get. But it's more than that. Emotionally, I'm empty. I hate my life. I hate being at school again, all these memories come flooding back, it hurts so bad. I think this episode of Charmed ( Read more... )

I hate that he always complains how skinny he is and that he doesn't think "he's big enough." I wish he could see how beautiful he really is. I hate that he gets along with everybody. I hate how he always says he wishes he was buff. I hate that he procrastinates, even though I do too. I hate how he pretends to not care how others perceive him, when ( Read more... )

I am so bored right now. Earlier today I cleaned my room and my bathroom a little bit, so I had something to do...now I'm done with that, and out of shit to do..except be on here..since as we all know, I have no life..I'm talking to some people, but they aren't the one I wanted to talk to..yeah..still in love with "that one". Even though he ( Read more... )

this is taking way long forever...its killing me. my hair smells like flaming death. Clairol makes herbal essences, but DAYUM! this bleach is making my eyes burn! im about to be washing this shit out. its been on my head for an hour and a half, and my hair is just turning a lighter shade of brown..im leaving it there for another half hour or so, ( Read more... )

I have officially decided that all of my guy friends have lost their minds. They are all hitting on me left and right, and it's freaking me the fuck out. FRIENDS...grrr. At the Bella Morte concert Jason kept staring at me and touching me, and one of the times he touched me, I was like, "Dude...you gotta stop." And I moved away from him, and I told ( Read more... )

Well....Last night myself, Jason, and Jake went to the Outback Lodge to see Bella Morte, and The Elderly perform. Bella Morte kicked fucking ass! They were awesome! I think I love Andy, lol, hes muy caliente! Jason kept fucking touching me and shit. And at one point Jake walked off to find a better place to stand and watch the show and Jason ( Read more... )

i hate my life. its so utterly boring. according to my horoscopes, it should be looking up a little bit here soon. or atleast i shouldnt be so depressed over jake anymore. fuck boys. they arent worth crying over. but i wish i believed that. i wish i was okay, i wish i didnt love him, i wish i wasnt depressed and sleeping all the time. fuck it. im ( Read more... )

I fucking hate people. Lots of people. Suck my ass. Fuck everything. Shitty piece of fucking bastard shit internet is at the top of my list right now...fuck aol.

01. Fallen for your best friend? yes ( Read more... )

im having one of those, life sucks kind of days, because im up, dressed, and want to go do something, but nobody is available to go do something with. i really hope that by telling jake's away message what i told it last night, i havent freaked him out, or scared him away. i want to call him, to talk to him, with the hopes that it wont be akward. i ( Read more... )