So I can't sleep tonight! I have so much on my mind. Luckily, money at work has been sooo much better and I'm so thankful. MY husband has been so unbelievably wonderful! He is helping me with money I need and making sure I spend as little as possible so that I can make it to GA in Sept. bc he knows how important it is for me. For the first ( Read more... )

So Curtiss' birthday party went really well!!! He had NO idea and everyone had so much fun! But now, I have no money. I am completely broke. What am I going to do????? How will I get to Georgia??????

I'm feeling much better after having a long talk with Curtiss last night. It was the discution we were both dreading, but I was about to lose my head! Thank go it's over and it went well. WE both feel so much better about our relationship!

I really hate this old friend of mine. This complete lack of self esteem mixed with a sincere dose of confidence is a chemical reaction my heart cannot handle. Literally: panic attacks, xanax, wine, insomnia, crying, anger... EVERYNIGHT!!! I'm such a mess. There's a mix between wanting to throw my hands up and say, "I quit," and "saying, FUCK ( Read more... )

I think it's interesting that I fund this article the morning after I wrote about taking responsability. I will and do take responsability, but I can't change it if the other person wont do the same ( Read more... )

It’s over now and we both know it. You won’t listen, you won’t take any amount of responsibility for distructive behavior or patterns. The idea that you did something wrong, even unknowingly is impossible in your world. Is it always someone else’s fault? I let you go, I knew I would have to sense I moved out. I don't want to with everyhitng ( Read more... )

I'm so sad, I have so many questions and so much to say. I'm starting to see a pattern ( Read more... )

Today is our 8 month anniversary. I woke up and the moment I realized where I was, I felt sick to my stomach. And now I’m just getting so depressed. There are so many things I want to tell you and I want you to know, and things I want you to feel. I will wait to hear from you until tonight. I’m worried about you. I love you ( Read more... )

I can’t begin to say how wrong this all feels! I hate this place!!! I hate sleeping here and most of all unpacking here!!! I want to go home!!! Home is where I am the only one in your heart and you want it that way!!!! I want to come home to you and feel you, feel us ( Read more... )

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