...You must die I alone am best ( Read more... )

Well i slept in till noon and i feel much better, i think i can finally eat today. I just read Jessie's livejournal for the first time since she dumped me and i feel much better, like holy hell that chick has so much going on in her head, i'm in a COMPLETELY different place than her. It makes me angry i let myself fall in love with her before, but ( Read more... )

Damn, sorry i cant update you on everything, my life's turned into crazy real damn quick. I've been puking and and everything for the last 3 days. I went to see my girl today and we went to visit her daddy. i like her daddy alot cause i want to be like him, he's my idol. Plus he loves jessie more than i do. I want her to move back there cause ( Read more... )

I'm wearing a dirty dickies shirt and torn up camo pants. i'm takin it easy today cause my tummy hurts, poor me. just gonna look for a job until i hear back about the management position. I used to hate rain cause it reminded me of british columbia, and i hated walking thru a rainy parking lot between classes in highschool. Now i like it cause ( Read more... )

I just want to let the entire world know that I made a 100 on my exam tonight!! WHOOO!!! I studied for hours, and i did it. This may seem like no big deal, but this is probably one of the biggest accomplishments of my life!! One of the few things i've put my whole self into and wrestled into the ground. I'm going to continue to kick the shit out ( Read more... )

Well, the sun rose again this morning!! i've been having the most intense lucid dreams lately due to the mugwort. Some seem to be prophetic. I felt like total shit when i woke up this morning, so i sat in a bubble bath and studied for my second exam. I took the exam and made a 100!!! I was very proud of myself. I've actually made a wonderful ( Read more... )

I haven't written in this thing lately, but i feel the need to at this moment. I've had quite an eventful day. fate dealt me some strange cards. i was sitting on the couch this afternoon, and some chick called. Turns out it was jessie dauro, the girl i was in love with 2 years after she left me for the airforce. We spent the afternoon together ( Read more... )

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I was writing a poem, about how she made me want to jump off a cliff and trust that she'd catch me. And ya know, it doesn't matter if she does or not, just that because she is who she is made me throw myself over for her no matter what the outcome. And after everything i've been through you'd think i'd be understanding and grateful. i would've ( Read more... )

I just swallowed a huge plate of pain casserole served on top of my flaming heart, and its now tucked away somewhere near my liver ( Read more... )