an old friend

[infinitend]

so today after i woke up at 3 in the afternoon. i went into town about 8 o'clock. i saw tonya and spoke to her. it's great to tell people the truth. you should never be afraid to tell people your thoughts of them. unless you want to kill them, then you shouldn't tell them. but anyways. i told her all i wanted to say. i didn't let my shy, feel

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[thirdeden]

i didn't even know you had an lj. so what happened with you and tonya? what happened with tonya and laura? She said she's mad at you two and didn't really give me a real reason. She pissed me off last night, but that's really my fault anyway.

the drama

[infinitend]

well when i wrote that i saw her at work and she went with hannah to a party. well hannah was the girl that tried to beat tonya up at another party. and i stood up for tonya and told hannah if she wanted to beat me up then do it.adn so she's like lets take it outside.so when i walked out the door, she closed it behind me. nothign happened between hannah and i. then tonya went to that party with hannah. and it made me feel like i did that for nothing, so i told her. then yesterday she came up to walmart and talked for a few and i said i had tuesday off so we should do something. and i waslike you should come over after work, stay the night and blah blah.well she told rachel she would go over there to do her myspace thing.then go home. well later i went to arbys for lunch. and i was at the counter and rachel goes up to her. omg you should stay the night and we can have a sleepover. well that made me mad. she's picking rachel. i don't know. i confronted her avout it.she pushed off on. we'll you go off with chris that hurts me. what's

Re: the drama

[thirdeden]

well, i can understand. You know i didn't talk to her for like 2 months and when i did she wanted to go hang out with rachael. That's fine, though. I just wish i could learn how to let go. If i could, i would be outta these bad relationships but i just can't seem to do it. Mainly because i have no one to hang out with, and i realize that is sort of selfish, but why not, huh? I mean everyone else is so freaking selfish, it's time for me to be. But anyway, i'm sorry, people suck :(

Re: the drama

[infinitend]

i understand. this is twice she's blown me off for her. and i don't want to sound selfish.like oh tonya must do somethin with me all the time. but sometimes you have to be selfish yourself. and your not being selfish. and not having anyone to hang out with. i really understand. i have "friends". people i associate with. but not a friend.like someone to listen to me. to understand me.me and laura are friends.i've told her she doesn't listen, she's selfish. but she doesn't listen to me. it goes in and out the other ear. i feel alone. sorry i'm like dumping all this on you. i don't mean to. i'm just being truthful. but as for tonya. i'm not gonna call her, or contact her. i love tonya but she sees things her way adn doesn't compromise, unless its for someone stupid like her boss, or chris, or rachael. it may sound like i'm being mean i'm not trying to but she didn't understand my view of it. i don't know. but i'm sorry about all my trash talking. and people do suck. anywho. call me next week or whenever. we'll do something. bye