In the past couple of weeks I've realized that I think I may be the only person I know who grew up. Not that it's a bad thing for anyone in this case. It's just odd how my problems are my own and they involve finances and work and being a parent while others' problems are who likes who and when the next party is. I kinda wish I still had those ( Read more... )

Tonight he left. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel, i feel nothing, really. You were a little upset, but mostly you wanted to play with your toothbrush. I love you so much and I'm not sure if I did the right thing or not tonight by not going, and I'm not sure if it's selfish of me to want you to never see him again. But I just want to get ( Read more... )

it isn't fair that i do so many fucking favors for you and help you out in enormous ways. If they were just small things like picking you up or giving you a ride, it might be different, but it's huge. Don't ask me to help you anymore I am a mommy, but i'm not your's ( Read more... )

Did you know that if you're single that means you're def looking for someone to be with and it's not possible or at least comprehensible to not want anyone? That's what I learned today for those who needed to know ( Read more... )

I've gotten a lot of bad news and a lot of stress handed to me in the last couple of weeks. I have to find somewhere to live and move out within like a week and i haven't even started to try. When i get stressed i get in denial and i just want it to go away without doing anything. That just doesn't work out too well. I know no matter where i ( Read more... )

Today was so horrible and stressful that my tummy is still in knots and i've come away with minor cuts all over my hands, but i think it's going to make an interesting story someday especially when Sebastian has friends over ( Read more... )

i haven't felt like this in a very very long time. it's all too familiar to me. but now there's an actual reason--some real thing i can blame, yet i still resort back to blaming myself. it's good that the one perfect person that exists is asleep in my arms. otherwise, other old friends might pop up.

Is it normal to just want to break down and cry for no reason just when i think about the baby?? When he smiles and i get all teary-eyed even if there are a million people there, is that normal ( Read more... )

I'M A MOMMY!!!

is there a reason that people are disgusting? Is it the way people are raised or is it something that just happens? I mean, cummon, it's fine if it's at your own house, but not when someone is nice enough to allow you to be in their house and you're still fucking nasty.

Please someone explain this to me, PLEASE!!

I gotta get outta here.