making a new livejournal this_is_now1989
just got to finish working out all the html.

i guess it doesn't matter what i am or pretend to be, because in the end you'll always pick her over me, i want to end this now so you can't haunt me in my dreams. i swear im gonna cry because im sick of being tough. i can't take having my feelings hurt so many times in a row, it's taken more then a toll on me. my life has become an open book, one ( Read more... )

"where did i go wrong, i lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness and
i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life."

it's been awhile since i updated, but not much has changed since then. im still working 24|7 and not sleeping, it doesnt matter though, i've learned to deal with it. skipped class today and went out into the courtyard to think, i've come to the concleusion that i need to stop being so critical of myself, and i can't depend on any guy to make it any ( Read more... )

i have absolutley no self esteem right now. i can't tell you how much i hate myself right now. my dad is retarded, and somehow deleted all of our songs on itunes. so now about 5000 soungs are gone, and im stuck re-loading them all back on and my computer is so fucking slow. i've got work in the morning, and i can't sleep so this should be ( Read more... )

it hurts, it hurts inside to feel the way that i do. it's hurts to feel like you've found everything that your looking for only to find, it isn't at all what you thought it was. it's hurts to feel so let down, so unwanted all the time. i just can't stop thinking about you and all that we've been through together. our realtionship has been distorted ( Read more... )

my ipod broked :(

so cassidy has been on my bus for the past week which makes everything alot better lol. it's nice to have someone to hangout with in the morning instead of sitting there all alone. school is getting better, im starting to get into the swing of things, starting to get into a routine. i still don't get much sleep though, i usually drop around 3 get ( Read more... )

my new manager is a hottie♥

once again im at kat's house, i pretty much live here now. today i finished my drama project it looks really cool. it took me like 2 hours to finsh it though. so yeah, i downed a whole box of pergoies :) i love those things. my nose hurts for no apparent reason, it's painful just to touch it. so im like what the fuck is that all about? anyways ( Read more... )