so i got the results back from my MRI and i have a herniated disk. which explains why a month after falling down that flight of stairs that im still in excruciating pain, why i have pain still shooting down my legs, and why i cant sit for more than 15 minutes a DAY. of course my doctor gives me names of surgeons straight off the bat, and i think ( Read more... )

the departed is one of my all time favorite movies. it makes me want to go to boston and have a guinness or three.

so since ive been hurt, freya has been having at least one bottle of donated breastmilk a day. usually her dad gives it to her when im too knocked out from the pain meds, or at bedtime, or when they run an errand. (they cant leave the baby with me alone, since i cant bend over, sit up, or lift her. im still pretty horizontal on the bed nonstop and ( Read more... )

is anyone else on facebook? i keep up with that much more than i do here or on myspace. if anyone wants to find me there i am arkay deese...just search me...im in the st louis network.

on thursday i fell down our hardwood stairs in my socks and banged my tailbone on each step as i went down. nick had to call 911 and i got to do the whole hospital craziness...i broke my tailbone. yes the same tailbone i already broke about 20 years ago ( Read more... )

Guess what? Nick actually bought me a great present for xmas-he got me a really awesome ipod. I've been gorging on downloading free podcasts and converting our massive mp3 collection to transfer it all. I've downloaded all the ethical society's podcasts, loveline, and the mommy's milk podcasts...i had the dane cook ones-but they were utterly BORING ( Read more... )

tomorrow i get my tubes tied.

im not so much scared as sad that i will not have any more
babies...though i know i cant put myself or my family through another
pregnancy. sigh.

sigh.

SIGH.

arkay, hugging the baby extra tight today...

its been ages since ive written anything in this blog. right now my computer is still fucked, im using our car diagnostic laptop for logging on and it sucks. its super slow and since its made for checking engine codes on broke cars, its just not internet friendly ( Read more... )

so i had prodromal labor for close to two weeks. i would have contractions that lasted 60 seconds, and were 3-5 minutes apart for four to five hour stretches. my cervix would dilate and thin during these times, but then i would stop ( Read more... )

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pictures of the birth...i will be posting more and the birth story when i can-thanks for the well wishes!

arkay, nick, maura, miette, and baby freya