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so lonely
It's the same story it's been for a while, I don't understand the motivation behind what is going on.
I don't say anything about it; that is fear
I keep it bottled up, pushed down; swallowed whole.
What am I doing here? -
pleh
I don't know what to think anymore... there is this divide... somedays it's hardly there at all but today it is so wide I can barely see across it... i feel like there is so much going on behind the scenes and I'm not privy to it... I feel like I'm a stranger to you... like I'm merely existing here ( Read more... ) -
smile back
"... when they know they your heart and you know you are their armor ( Read more... ) -
yea yea yea... he loves you... yea yea yea
I wish I had gone to that movie
it would have cost less
I wish I hadn't of gone home so early
I wouldn't of missed you
I wish I didn't give in so easy
it's only gonna hurt again
I wish i hadn't opened my mouth
my foot wouldn't have gotten stuck
I wish
I wish
I wish...
But wishing isn't going to make it any better
and neither will he... -
Do I have to.....?!
Here we go again that feeling is back
that questioning the faith i have in people
shit fuck damnit -
no 1 2 talk 2
A lot of things have been happening... today was a big day... i got a call from teh social worker about my biological family and it seems she slips me information that i otherwise wouldn't have and probably shouldn't know at this point. Seems my half brother's birthday just passed in June... He's 20 now. looks like I waited just long enough so i ( Read more... ) -
Holding on
Straining to hold back tears ( Read more... ) -
4 F's sake
I don't knwo why i try anymore... I'm tired of trying to hang out with people or thinkin the best of people... "... it's just one of those you don't wanna wake up, everything is fucked everybody sux ( Read more... )