so, something has been in the back of my mind on an off 
for the past weeks
something from the past, something i didnt see standing
right in front of my face

Jessika is a lovely girl i have known for a while.
and in the peak of us getting to know each other
we shared a lot of crazy personal things 
and got really close
started to hang out
became good ( Read more... )

not a great week in the life of Anthony
i had to lie to one of the best professors 
in the whole entire world
she's my friend and my mentor
and i lied to her
just to get an extension on a paper 
i hate this
im so strung up on keeping my 4.0
that i will do grimy shit to keep it
i hate this
i am not a liar
why do i do these things =[
i let myself down on this ( Read more... )

last night i had the loveliest dream in what seemed to be forever.
i dont know if it was due to me being really sick and on meds, or 
because i've been sick i've been forced to sleep...
but this dream was so amazing that when i found myself waking up
i tried hanging on so desperately 
to make the dream stick
to stay in it as long as possible.

it was so ( Read more... )

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i just need to vent a little
about a former best friend of mine
named Robert Gore
a best friend of mine since the 9'th grade
we were neighbors, kick it pals, shit talkers,
video gamers, basketball players, drunks, 
saviors, brothers, best friends.

Robert Gore joined the ranks of the Armed Forces
as a member of the Air Force.
ever since then the bond between ( Read more... )

there is just some point where you've got to
look at her differently
the point where after five long years 
you accept that she's not the same
lovely, amazing, caring, beautiful, loving person
that you knew in High School

it is so hard, but i finally realize she's not
my best friend, love of my life, hope for love anymore

so im letting go

to anyone who got the Ha ppy, IOU one HUGE hug

my valentine's day started off with me 
waking up to the sound of keyboard clicks
my cousin spent the night, and when i awoke
he was ALL up on my computer chair, clicking
and typing away on my computer.

so he left, i talked to my bestieeeee =]
"yay im so excited you're getting a car"
heh

my dad is SOOOOOOO gay
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okay, so here's what i did.
i went to Photobucket
picked out a photo totally randomly
and wrote something about it
you give it a try too, here's mine

English Love

She had distraction written loosely on her lips

Listening to English garage bands

On a warped disk warming in the English sun

Molly Ryan, boyish haircut

One of The Destructors ( Read more... )

i love getting closer and closer to people
even if you've known them for years
it feels so good to get closer to them
and love them more and more as you do
friends; such an amazing concept
i believe in them again =]

& i wouldnt mind finding this

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so my Cousin Michelle gave me some baby pictures
i have never had baby pictures, only a handfull because
of my whore mother =]
but i love these, i wish i remembered being this happy

Rocking my baby-hawk

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