How happy are you―really? If there’s room for improvement, try one of these suggestions ( Read more... )

It seems like it will never get any better than it is right now. I live in a world where people talk and communicate their ideas in a mostly flow. I feel so out of place because i can't get into this flow of conversation everyone else is in. I have been trying for so long to fit and and be like everyone else, because everyone else is talking. And ( Read more... )

I've been feeling extremely anxious lately. I want to say that i do try very hard to be more social and try to overcome my anxiety, but it always is there stopping me. How am I suppose to feel better and live with myself? I don't want to say that i have seriously thought about leaving this place, but i do think about why i am here. I see myself as ( Read more... )

I hung out with a group of friends this weekend. It was really my friend and her sister and her friend up in northern cali. I'm not very good at this social kind of stuff but i did okay for myself. We did a bit of drinking on saturday and played a fun board game. I've been trying so hard to open up to my friends sister but i feel like i either say ( Read more... )

I'm having a real identity problem. I keep going back in fort on what i should belive in, what is the beat way to believe, what is it that will lead me to a more fulfilling life. And i dont want to write about how i can't talk to people because that is all i have done for all these years. I haven't changed and i have little hope of changing soon, ( Read more... )

I've been working at this place where i have to sit at my desk and make phone calls all day. It's not a bad job and I am actually kind of good at it, but my inability to be social is really sticking out like a sore thumb now. I now know why I avoided working in a job that had some social interaction but this is my small attempt to try and be more ( Read more... )

I have felt a lot better in the past few weeks. I finally went out and got a job!. I had a job before but this is more related to what I majored in school. It was a big relief to get it done and not have to worry about it anymore. I now wonder why I put it off so much. All i did was let a lot of anxiety build up and make my life a living hell. I ( Read more... )

I saw my therapist for the last time today. This was my therapist for 3 years now. I remember when I first started working with him back in late 2004. It seems like ages ago now. That was right after Veronica stopped talking to me, and I didn't do as well I wanted to in school because of my sadness. But that was also a good time because late 2004 ( Read more... )

This time of year is going to me my new most hated time of the year. GRADUATION! Right now I am feeling down that a year has passed since I graduated and I still haven't been able to get my life going. I have a cousin and a friend who are graduating this year from college and i feel a bit bad when i find out that they have everything planned out ( Read more... )

I finally reach out to talk to one of my friends and she pratically ignores me. Well I remembered why I stopped talking to her. I would call her and she was too busy with someone to even pay attention. If she was online she would not reply to message. This was my best friend. My friend who I took to radiohead with me. The friend who spent many ( Read more... )