Walked 4 miles today. I felt so good. About 300 calories burned and I've had 155 today. Yay! I still am pissed at myself though for not doing everything that I need to. I have all this shit that I need to get in order and I havent' done it yet. UGH. Oh well, I will do it. We go on vacation this tuesday and so I'm stressed about that. I am not ( Read more... )

I feel like  I'm going crazy. I've been doing nothing the past few days. Today I watched my niece and nephew for my mom but nothing I've needed to do has gotten done. I just feel so lazy. And I am. I know that I am. But it's so frustrating because I don't know how to change it. I just want to keep ignoring the entire world and not living. I know ( Read more... )

 Okay. WHY THE HELL DO I WANT SOMEONE SO BAD?!?!?!?!?!?!!?? It's not that I want love or some sort of self-esteem boost but right now I want someone to make out with. It seems so young to want something like that. But last time I had someone to make out with it didn't turn out so well. And that makes me rethink the whole wanting someone thing. Plus ( Read more... )

Its so frustrating sometimes to be close to people. Then they feel like they have the right to interfere constantly in your life. And then they worry and feel the need to have dinner and say things that feel like they are doing small interventions. And I do not trust people. I have learned over the years that trusting simply leads to heartache. Ugh ( Read more... )

I hate not being able to fall asleep. Especially when you are so exhausted that all you want to do is sleep. But my wisdom teeth are coming in and so it hurts like hell and I can't sleep. I'm so upset with myself for today. I didn't keep with my plan! Although I did walk/run two miles so that makes up for some of it. But I feel like my sister is ( Read more... )

 I've decided to try the JUDDD diet. I've been reading some stuff about it and it seems like it might work. So, starting today. 
Today is a down day. I'm hoping that this goes good. I need to get out of my rut that I am in.

I can and will do this.

Ok. Going to do good today. I'm thinking that I need to set the goal a little higher so I don't screw up. Therefore, I've decided that I can go to dinner and have two bites of whatever I get. (nothing bad of course ( Read more... )

Wow. So it's Sunday. I am doing okay ( Read more... )

Ugh. Cereal and chips will be my downfall ( Read more... )

I did good on my liquid fast!! Dinner was hard cause I actually went to the caf with some of my friends but I just told them I didn't feel good cause I'm on my period which was partially true. So I didn't eat anything! Yay!!! Tomorrow I am going to allow myself some food but not very much. 
I'm very proud of myself. I haven't done so good in a while ( Read more... )