One month I'm up. One month I'm down. I hung out with boy Sunday, but I didn't have the courage to ask the real reason why he won't be with me. I do not believe that it is Martin. Maybe a little, but that's not the reason 100%. I want to know, but I blew my chance. *sigh*

I have a new obsession and I'm a million percent sure that it is unhealthy.


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I'm done trying to make things happen. It's kind of like giving up, but for good reason. What is meant to be will be, and what's not won't. I just have to accept that.

I'm in so bad. I want it so bad.

Today is a very depressing day, for I am mourning the loss of my beloved eyebrow piercing. My little beauty was about to turn eight months old when I decided she was really being rejected. For the last five months I have been in denial of the rejection process taking place. The sad thing is I really am upset over this. If you know me well then you ( Read more... )

So I'm going to post a picture... next to another picture.


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Ahhhhh. This week has been super fucking stressful. Honestly, I'm lucky I survived.

Work was hectic as hell. Yes, I'm happy I was able to get a lot of hours, but shit even those three hour shifts killed me. This is my first day off since last Saturday, and before then I worked every day except Tuesday. Even when I got eight hours of sleep I was ( Read more... )

I’ve been caught sideways out here on the crossroads
Trying to buy back the pieces I lost of my soul
It’s hard when the devil won’t get off your back
It’s like carrying around the past in a hundred pound sack

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Finally home... I was supposed to land at six pm. Whooooops. Good job, Chicago weather.

Well, I'm in the NC. The flights were smooth and all on time, so that was a plus. I was really freaking out thinking I might miss the flight to Wilmington, but I made it with a comfortable cushion of time. Hopefully Chicago weather will be good enough for me to fly in on time next Saturday!

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