I just got back from the gym and i feel great, but not perfect. I always get on that ellipictal trainer *i have no idea how to spell it* and i can't stay on for more then five minutes! whats a great way to get in shape for it? Like time and level i should be doing..or w/e ( Read more... )

I've fallen..

and i can't get up.

Everything seems to be happening exactly the oppposite of what i want and need. i eat like a lot..and throw it up. but i dont' think i even throw up everything. any tips on how to make sure you throw it all up??

i wish i had ana again.
i need to be strong.

good luck girls!! stay strong.

I need the strength.
im so determined.

Your Total ( Read more... )

I may as well just stop saying ill try a fast, because i never end up succeeding.
whats wrong with me??
how can all of you girls be so strong..but i can't?

i want to give up so bad..
But i have so many dreams..

I want to be thin
i want to be fragile

i can't give up now..
has this ever happened to anyone? where it seemed totally hopeless..

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I can't post body shots quite yet.
but here are some pix of me when i was 130..
and some of them are from when i was 120.

<3

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Bulimia has been taking me over. I eat because i know i can purge it. But i want it to go away. I want to be strong and resist food. If anyone has ever gone through this, and eventually transformed to ana..how did you do it? I used to be ana before this, but then i went to New York with my youth group, and ate a lot..and ever since ( Read more... )

Day one..

yea..we'll see how long this one lasts
:-\

Hey..im new to this whole thing. And ive been off and on. But i really just need some help. Im 120lbs..5'5
which is a lot. I want to lose my appetite. i want to not want food. i hate having to force myself not to eat. Any tips? thanks guys. i hope everyone is doing well!!

i have aim ..so if you want to talk just give me your s/n.