so, tomorrow morning i leave for the airport. i'm going to bulgaria to visit my relatives and speak some bulgarian. crazy stuff except that i'll be gone until the end of july...a LONG time. So, i thought i'd let everyone know. i hope your guys' days and nights go fabulous and i'll talk to you soon. send me some messages, eh?

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Same old situation ( Read more... )

"no one ever said it was be easy ( Read more... )

another depressing day, you know? when you realize once again that no one really cares...that you're just another person in another school in another city. This world is too big, and no one really matters. How many of your friends would actually risk their life in order to help you? how many people would rush over if you were feeling sad or ( Read more... )

is anyone else feeling that summer is almost here? i mean, yes, the weather was incredibly crappy today, but going to school is becoming so difficult. i just want to be out there, just want to drive around and sit on the grass and feel the cool air in my hair. man, oh man. forcing myself to go to school and still think, still try, still work hard ( Read more... )

last night was prom. it was definately more fun than i thought it would be...you know, despite all the rap and stuff, i had a great time. Only a few complications, some which are still left to be worked out, but overall i'm pleased. It was great to see everyone at bowling afterwards too. what a night. what a night.

just a few more days ( Read more... )

So, yesterday was the burial ceremony, which i had to ditch school to see. Of course, it was all very sad, very dramatic, very empty without Mark, but all i can say is that at the end, i had a slight sense of relief. I felt glad that the whole thing was over, and i felt like Mark had finally been put somewhere to rest...no more of the constant ( Read more... )

Today was the ceremony with an open casket. I had never seen a dead person before. It was scary, touching, depressing. We cried for nearly an hour and a half. I miss him so much...seeing him all pale and cold, still dressed in his favorite green sweater, his baseball cap lying by his head ( Read more... )