invisible.

&& you are sooooo good at it.

but you won`t read this.

cuz you don`t care, like you say you do.

it`s jus easier to use me.

so i still feel like a toy.
being played with.
but my problem.
my heart.
my choice.
and i know the person will read this.
so it doesn't even matter what i say.

so my life.

i smoke.
yes i do.

and i hate life.

listen to "My Love" by Ciara.

its my theme.

oh, and Liz and i will own a nude beach one day and become porn stars.
though she is almost there to become a ( Read more... )

hiiii.
why am i crying?
i just want this feeling to be over.
I don't feel like a person.
he makes me feel horrible about myself.
and i can't even wake up anymore.
i lay in bed all day.
go to a class or two, then sleep more.
i don't want to move.
i don't want to awake in the morning.
i can't breathe.
i'm crying so much.
my heart won't stop beating when i think ( Read more... )

i wanna die, i told jovy off.
and i may never see him again.
but he'd rather kiss april drunk then me sober
and crying for the 30 minutes before yelling at him
just ask kathy chavez, she was who i told i wanted to die to.

i'm hanging off an edge
and no one will pull me back up.

i need help.
[[ps don't stop at the pics, there is more at the bottom]]
and all ( Read more... )

i'm laying on my bed shakin' my booty in boxers.

[[ ps i have no life ]]

so two words.

FUCK YOU!

i have more insecurities now than i did before

. . all i want to do is cry.

Seemeen, where are you?!

i need my emo girl.
and i will just call her....

listening to "I'll Be" by Edwin McCain.
I love this song, but it makes me want to cry.

i feel like i should be doing more with my life, but i've recently just become this shell.

i have work this weekend, and all i want to do is party and get fucked up.

Hey everyone.

I'm here at work.

There is no internet here, so this is a delayed post yes, but I am here alone.

&& i have things to say.

I was looking at something, it said

"my head tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me"

&& that's my dilemma.

what do i do?

- date other people.

- just run a mock here at school and sleep in everyone's bed.

- or do i ( Read more... )

some girl jus asked me to go to "the hush sound" concert next weekend, so i said yes.

=]
should be fun.