i need to clean my room! i want to re-arange it but i would need some help from a few strapping young fellows...any takers ( Read more... )

I dont deserve anything i have
especially my friends

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i never want to leave my house again
i hate the light of day.

wow i need some new friends
im done with everything
peace.

i think i should make some lifestyle changes for real. i need to cut back on drinking or at least not get wasted when i do drink. i need to know what im doing so that i dont make a fool out of myself anymore, how embarassing ( Read more... )

changes will be made.

i feel like ive wasted so much time and im afraid of wasting any more.
what to do what to do @*#$%!*&#$^!!!!

ughh why does shit always bother me for so long?!?!
this is redic, can i just forget about this already?
im better than before i guess, 4 months ago i would have filpped out over stupid shit like this.
i guess its true that time heals everything.

i tried. but sometimes its never enough.

but not in a bad way. in a good kinda "aww im glad they feel the same way" way.
i know that comment war on jensens LJ is like a week ago but hey! i just got the time to read it after she told me of it ahaha.
this just made me gush:
"before i or gerri even had a friend to call our friend, her and i were 7th grade nobodies. we found eachother in a home ( Read more... )

so basically im screwed with my car. it would be stupid to trade it in because they would only give me about 7 thousand for it and that puts me 5 thousand in the hole. so im stuck with the thing or just not having a car at all depending on what my asshole dad says. and now i feel so stuck because im never going to be able to go to cos school and ( Read more... )