So I guess I feel very weird. I can't feel very much sometimes and I guess thats a good thing, but then again I want to feel. There are things that will never be the same with me and there are things that I can't control, but I wish I could. I want to be with someone again, but then again I don't. I want that stability, but then again I don't ( Read more... )

GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One of the cysts has gone down! its only 2cm now! and she couldn't find the other one The fibroid is still there, damn thing hasn't moved grrrrrr BUT I can live

I want to keep everyone up to date on all of my ovary pals. now there are 3 ( Read more... )

starting over is harder than it seems. Its like im starting from scratch again. last week I felt like everything was resetting and I guess I was right ( Read more... )

sitting in a computer lab at JJC right now next to Mitch. I have the biggest headache in the world right now and it sucks. I have a new boyfriend now :) which makes me uber happy. He is sooooooo much different than Brandon was. He just makes me smile a lot. I'm happy about that and that I am getting better with the whole bi polar thing. think ( Read more... )

I figure its time for another update.
1. brandon and I got back together and then broke up again (his fault this time)
2. been diagnosed with bi polar mania
3. I have a tumor
4. school sucks
5. my donkey can kick your donkey's ass

thats about it.

woot! i'm at U of I right now. Brandon is a jerk and an asshole. I don't know how I survived in that kind of relationship. Just for the record Jerahmy........ i'm not saying anything to anyone so don't worry about that. I wish I were with someone though. :( eh my time will come I guess. until then........ I got nothing.

Believe whatever you want to believe, but you were the best at everything, not him. Yes ok yes i liked it but you said that you liked kissing that girl. So we are even. I'm going to stick to our agreement and Amanda and Rose and Danielle and Genevieve and Karen can vouch for that. I couldn't ever do that again to you, it hurts too much. Just ( Read more... )

yea definaately started school today. don't wanna do homework though :( grrrrrrr I'm so happy I am not at Eastern this semester. I really didn't like it there. I was imagining how it would feel if I were there even with how good I feel now and yea I think it would go back to the same thing as last year. I really hated that. heheheheh yea ( Read more... )

So............ Today and yesterday weren't very fun days for me. Yesterday I went over to Brandon's house with every thought that we were going to break up because of what had happened the day before, but I got there and he says that he doesn't want to break up. That surprised the hell out of me let me tell you! I wasn't really sure how to ( Read more... )