Gotta love crying the whole ride home....grief finds odd times to hit you. Merry fucking christmas.

I'm not going to wallow in my sorrows. I'm stronger than that. I'm motivated to push myself to fulfill my dreams. Goals will become accomplishments. Dreams will become reality. Nothing is stopping me...and NO ONE will get in my fucking way. It's do or die. All I've got in this life is myself and NO ONE will take that away from me ( Read more... )

My mom passed away today...

I don't even know what to say right now.

I've spent my entire life thinking about all the questions I would ask my father if I had just one more day with him. And now I find myself at the opposite end of the spectrum. My mother is dying and I can't think of a single thing to say to her. I'm not even sure she is still in her body anymore. I try and try to think of something...but I wind up ( Read more... )

I'm in Baltimore til....i dont know how long. I took a leave of absence from school because Mom is in the hospital waiting for a liver transplant.  This past week has been a roller coaster. It got to the point i began preparing my final words to my mother. How does one even comprehend such a horrible horrible thing. My biggest fear is losing my mom ( Read more... )

Apparently Kyle thought I was seeing someone else....and THAT'S why he stopped talkin to me and shit. Although I wasn't. Therefore I had NO CLUE. But WHY wouldn't you say something? Like derrrrh! Sorry but I'm an adult, I communicate. Even though things are straightened out, I really don't think I wanna try things again with him. I'm a smart girl ( Read more... )

Guess who shows up last night while I'm working.... That's right: Mr. Not Answer My Phone Calls For a Fucking Week. Kyle Muilkens. He acts strange towards me, doesn't make conversation, has a hard time looking me in the eye. I confront him, he figets, he looks away, and LIES TO MY FACE. I'm a psych minor. It's not hard to figure out when someones ( Read more... )

I'm dumping Kyle. I think I have to. I will not tolerate mood swings and drama. Unacceptable unless you have a vagina and horrible pms or pmdd. Last night he got pissed at me because I wouldn't drive to Easton at 3:00 in the morning to pick him up from the bar when i had 1. A sinus infection 2. To get up for class at 7am 3. 7 hours worth of class ( Read more... )

Apparently I suck at updating. Oops.

Not much I really want to talk about I guess.

Still miserable without Tory, been dating around, but nobody's good enough or the complete package.

School is going good...as long as I can concentrate.

Work is great.

My birthday is soon...

Idk. That's about it.

Tory and I are finished. Sucks. I really cared and liked him a lot. He was everything I wanted but...men won't make or break me. I've got more important shit to worry about. And besides...i get asked out all the time...I'm not worried about finding someone else. Sad part is, I probably wont be single come the end of this week...thats how easy it is ( Read more... )