I'm at a strange place in my life. As I look through photographs of recent years I see an evolution within myself. I saw dependence and uncertainty fade from my eyes and a new self blossom from troubled times. There are events in life that will change you, but these are NOT the moments that define you. There are mistakes you must make a thousand ( Read more... )

SoOoOo a lot has changed since I purged last ( Read more... )

I'm depressed. There. I said it. No one has a clue how bad its gotten. I'm too ashamed to admit how bad it is and exactly how I'm feeling. I miss my former resiliant self. Where did she go? I just want happiness again. God please help me find happiness again. The weight of the world has gotten too heavy for my libra scales right now...I'm ( Read more... )

Tory came home this weekend. I got to see him last night. And I feel soooooo happy. I needed to see him so bad. My heart has the biggest smile right now. I feel so full of life again. Nothing could feel better than being in his arms all night.

God, I'm absolutely crazy about him.

Sleeeeep where are youuuu?!

God my body is all sorts of fucked up right now.

Physically, mentally and emotionally. I lose.

Universe- 3 Tab-0

News flash: No one cares.

My day is a blur
I'm trying to fit the pieces together
Moments of love
Moments of guilt
I wanna be irrational and wild

I hate the silence ( Read more... )

Mom and I used to laugh about our nocturnal nature and having casual conversations at 3:00 in the morning like it was just completely normal... *sigh* We could tuck ourselves into bed like normal people...but it was just a facade. I'm a creature of the night...

I can't sleep. My heart is sick. Grief has begun to take it's toll on me. I have a constant lump in my throat that only seems to dissipate when I sleep...but as soon as my thoughts return...it quickly comes back to the point I can't eat. The thought of food makes me sick. I just wanna vomit my heart out all day long ( Read more... )