Sometimes I think that I really don't care I just babble. Most of the things that I say, don't really matter. They are simply an insight into an imperfect person, learning their imprefect ways. I wonder what would happen if I typed the words that really go through my head. Most of the time I do, but a lot of the time I hesitate. I think of who ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. I'm not surprised. I usually feel this dead after a weekend of dealing with people. Dealing with people. Jesus. There was an undefined point in my life were I fed off of people. I got energy from being friends with them and loving them, and the mutual respect we had for each other. I trusted them. I really did. I would trust people ( Read more... )

Sometimes things take you unexpected, to suddenly realize that something you cared about doesn't really matter anymore, and then to move on to something more important. Someone you trust. It makes me smile to know that I can do it. That I won't be stuck on it... the elusive it that has haunted me for years. I've changed. I know I have. I'm easier ( Read more... )

I decided after class today to take a walk in the 8 degree weather to clear my head. I dropped my stuff of in my car and headed towards the Field House on the other side of campus. I was walking with my head down, hood up, with my hands in my pockets watching the smoke protrude from my mouth with no thoughts in my head. I glanced up for a second ( Read more... )

i used to dream...

I have always been the person to make the effort and I hate it. I go places to visit people, but they never come to me. I go over to someones house but they never come to me... I don't want to be the person to bend over and take it anymore. I don't understand why it is always up to me to come to them. In nearly every aspect of my life its... call ( Read more... )

Though I should know this saying goodbye is hard. Everyone wants you to come back and everyone is going to miss you. I mean seriously, what kind of friend would someone be if they simply met you said "nice knowing ya!" then gave you a hug then left ( Read more... )

I’m SO paranoid of getting hurt. I’m getting my heart broken over and over. My heart has SO many scars and bruises all over it. I DON’T know how much just one heart can take really, and i don’t really want to find out either ( Read more... )

One Night Stands: Whoever created such a thing is one of the cruelest people ive ever met. Whenever i let a person get physically close me i get attached. You instantly become a part of me. and i expect you to keep wanting more. that is, unless you never wanted me, u wanted my body. which hurts. i wish people would look past my boobs and see the ( Read more... )

so everything that ive been looking forward to this summer has come and gone. camp with the flecks, parties, my 18th birthday, kennywood, graduation parties, my party, and friends leaving for college. This summers been pretty good but its also taught me alot about myself ( Read more... )