weathered and worn
my heart reaches out
trying to remember
how it all works

searching and lost
feelings fall in pieces
trying to find their place
within this puzzle

tired and true
whispers of lost youth
tell a selfish tale
of me wasting away

against time
i find myself
failing

efficiently set
self destructive traps
spring

i lose
to my selfish
design

clever enough
to beat me
hahaha

how sad
can this really
be

selfishly absorbed
perfect long lasting
victory

an end
far from abrupt
deserved

every where i've been
for so long now
seems to be no where

standing perfectly still
in a world driven by motion
my romance with life is over

the struggle overcomes desire
breaths mature into gossip
hope and dreams die silently

in this grave of indecision
buried by procrastination
i lie lost to time

there are these moments of clarity. fast fading as they are where i find desire. the desire to be right again. to try...to give my all. when i see myself for what i could be, what i could have been. not what i am. i hear your voice in these moments. pushing me to be better. it hasn't happened yet. but i hear you calling. encouraging words ( Read more... )

forgive me
not for all i have done
but for all i have not
forgive me
for not living life fully
for being a lamb
forgive me
i've been lazy
i've wasted so much
forgive me
since i can't
since i won't
forgive myself

i can't find the answers that i need ( Read more... )

SHE ( Read more... )

this weight
drags me
pushes me
down
suffocating me
without remorse
i feel
this
the pressure
of emptiness

i love you more than anything ( Read more... )

i can't finish it. i can't force it. am i so incomplete that i can't finish a thought ( Read more... )