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horrifying: the realization that that little feeling you were getting that life seems meaningless is not just a feeling but a truth; there is no meaning because there is too much meaning-- everyone has their own theory and it is ultimately arbitrary. the meaning you create is only truly yours, and you have to wonder what that actually means. it ( Read more... )

i'm _so_ done with this shit.

Help, I have done it again ( Read more... )

my entire xanax bottle never looked tastier

i cut myself again. it had been a while. now i want to vomit.

i played with the idea of braking my head. maybe that way i'll just forget everything and everyone and be forced to start over without the pain of remembering.

god, please give me the strength to start my life over without them.

why am i so tired?
why am i so sad?
why am i lonely?
and why can't I stop wondering how long its going to take you to run into other arms?

i can't wait for finals to finish. i want to crash.

random thoughts that don't help me think; perhaps the caffeine is kicking in ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder whether i have it in me anymore ( Read more... )

if you do it, let me know, i wanna see ( Read more... )