i wont say a word. not a whisper. your best layed plan, is my best kept secret. you might see me, maybe we'll run into each other. yeah, ill be stumbling down the sidewalk, and you'll be fine...words turn to fire and ill burn alive. a shy smile, and a weak-end heart. and if its one thing im used to, its being let down.

i never see the sun anymore. stopped going to work. last week was a blur. coffee. coffee ( Read more... )

im going to sell my stuff. ill keep my records...maybe a couple of bikes. but i feel like wandering around....some place really far away. so if you know anyone who wants about 200 hardcore cds let me know HA. HA. i just want about 200 polaroids of places ive been..and im lacking. also if you want to come wander, i could use the company. i wish i ( Read more... )

jealous. i dont mean to bother you. but i just wanted to leave my i.o.u in your mailbox. i dont want to talk about the poison that you infected me with. just wanted to let you know that i fancy you. im to tired right now to care. we need better days. and the world....dont get me started.

i hold tears. call me a dream catcher. and i laugh with the rain. dont ever call. i cant sleep anymore. im doing very well....and i owe it all to something, or someone, or some words like that. i dont know...dont wait to long.

im almost at the point were i dont need to write. my journal sits with the last update long ago. i like to document time, but sometimes i like to let it slip by. im cold, but it feels nice. i was thinking of you the other day, and i feel like i dont have memories, i have scars. so good luck...i have no ill feelings towards you ( Read more... )

i woke up at 5:30 this morning. i could hardely breathe, the end result of my cold. i watched the snow fall, then went out and stood in it for awhile. just a t-shirt and my pajama pants(of course shoes, it is mission hill). i took some pictures, it just looked so peaceful. i think im going to put together my bad weather bike, and just ride around, ( Read more... )

true feelings surface, you were a fake all along. i cant say im surprised. all smiles and handshakes when we meet. its only five minutes out of my life, but id love to hear you justify. anyway...

bravo doug, you stood up for yourself. or i hope i stood up for something at least. sometimes i feel that the world dosnt care at all about anything, or anyone...so i tried to create some sort of feeling with my action. and while the point was overlooked(im sure..) i still feel i did the right thing. //or at least fooling myself into thinking i did ( Read more... )

i can hardley breathe. wouldnt it be perfect. like those moments that id pick to be my memories. the stars hang so low here, well i swear that i could just reach up and grab some. maybe ill collect some for you. christmas angel under the tree, her light casts dancing shadows over the presents. and the same light flickers in a childs eyes, as the ( Read more... )