today was awful. i got rear-ended on my way to work, was late, then had to go to the hospital. my luck has been absolutely wretched lately. but, i'm okay and they gave me prescription pain killers and muscle relaxers. swell. now i have to go read 50 pages of 300 level dance history class stuff. wonderful.

i didnt sleep last night. 102.6 temperature all night. being sick when your mom is 1100 miles away really really sucks. also laying in bed unable to sleep for ten hours isnt that great either.

if you're in CA, you should come rub my back... :(

stars advice through music prayers had plagued my thoughts of late. commitment, happiness, and certainty are confusion. this is good, i hope for its persistence.

hey everyone, for those who don't know i'm back in town, i've seen a few of you, and called a few more, but you should definitely call me and hang out cause with my brother and sister still in school i can only handle so much of my mom. anyways, talk to you soon.

i guess i'll call people tomorrow.

too drunk n ow.

so i just got home. dropped oaf off at a precisely calculated hour, drove myself home, hugged each member of my family, showered, and contracted my brother to unload my very full car, for the price of a mere dollar. life does not get much better.

dinner with the fam tonight, after that...? call me.

though lyrics are often meaningful, posting them for lack of better things has been annoying me lately.

also, i'll be home in less than 72 hours.

i have no house, no roommates, and no idea what i'm doing next year.

everything i thought was going to work has fallen through in the span of the last three weeks.

my parents are stressed because i'm too stressed and too busy to figure anything out.

i'm fucked.

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by, just upon a smile

there's a haze across the city
an orange glow around the edges

its a feeling inside i get
cool nights, on the brink
full to the brim.

i find you fascinating.

time is leaving,
pain is not. its on its way.

again i will leave behind
a person

much more.
much, much more.

on the brink of everything.