Sooo long since I have written here. Don't want my account to be deleted, so I am putting up a post.

can u pick them out? I can. I'm just never attracted to them... at least not the men.

Okay, so I was wrong, not the man I'm going to marry. What is wrong with me? I haven't felt this sad since film school. I haven't connected with someone like that since, well, since, ever. Okay, since blue eyed married man, but what the hell kind of connection is that anyway? I HATE LA right now. I hate that I can't meet anyone. I hate that ( Read more... )

I think I met the man I'm going to marry Saturday night, October 27th, but that's between you and me. So sweet.

april's in culture shock. people in la like drama. april doesn't. it's a bit of a culture shock.

I want to share the joy that has found me. I'd like the secret to reach the masses, and yet, it is hard work, regulating your mind. Thinking only in positive ways. Do we each have a destiny? Could I meditate for months only to discover that my lack of suffering is unable to be shared? I fear that my family hates me, and around them I sneak, ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking happy to finally be done with this shite! Movin to LA babies. And I swear to you, good omens abound! I did a dayplayer role three weeks ago because a couple of my friends were the producers. Then, I booked a Paul French industrial (without even auditioning) that I filmed today. I already have an agent and my feet are doing ten ( Read more... )

What is it about instant love that grounds our heart so concretely ( Read more... )

I have an angry fan comment on my myspace page. Someone I didn't get back to apparently. And, also, people in public started recognizing me. No thanks to my roommate, Sharon, whom I dearly love, but whom, ever since she found out has told everyone we meet about Andre. Two nights ago we went out and I just wanted to go home, but she was talking ( Read more... )

I bought a pair of size 0 jeans two days ago. They fit, comfortably. I'm very excited about this, yet I feel I have no one to share it with so I can't be that excited. Truthfully, a year ago, I thought it wasn't possible for me, losing weight- getting into a size 0... I just want someone to grab my hands and jump up and down with me. Cept I ( Read more... )