I remember not wanting a lofted bed at school cos I was afraid I'd fall out of my bed.

but really, how many times have I actually fallen out of my bed? I can't remember any.

as if I'd fall out simply because it had risen in height.

I am feeling too much/too little of everything lately. I want 2009 to be over as soon as possible so I can start over with 2010. not enough good things this year to counter the bad. I'm on another stupid antibiotic again which could interact with my bc. my textbooks are going to fucking cost $200 or more. I can't wait/don't want to start school. I' ( Read more... )

school is going to end before I figure out what I am doing.
I won't kid myself, I'm going to spend a minimum of 8 months living at home right after.

god. thinking about breaking up but not seriously but not permanently only temporarily like for a month or two that could be a break right but then things could end up worse than they started and i wouldn't be any un/happier or lonelier as i am lonely more than half the year anyway so whats another day week month this isn't a serious thought but i ( Read more... )

just posting to mention that i hear cars again. 12.58am on a Thursday

its after 2pm and I haven't eaten anything today, nor do I think i'll feel like it, even though i've been awake since around 11am. god I am just still so mad/upset that I don't really know what to do ( Read more... )

yep so. this happens every so often but i am going to start writing it down so i can document when it happens cos its a little weird. around 1am on some days i will hear a car that sounds like it is driving forward, reversing, driving forward again etc ( Read more... )

i am going to try to make this as lucid as i can because it is 3.30 and i am tired. first of all kevin jonas is engaged excuse me, i just do not know what this world is coming to. i mean he is the oldest but isn't he like 19 or something and just got engaged to a 22 year old (i read this in the hartford courant right) and just. he is so ( Read more... )

jobless summer so far -_ ( Read more... )

introducing the summer where I am disappointed by everything.