yeah...

i keep hoping that kimberly calls me...just to see her name there, for whatever reason would make me smile really big. If it were to ring, I'd let it ring for a few rings, just so I can enjoy it, because more than likely it'd be something like a favor or she found something that belongs to me...poop. I can't sleep again, it really sucks. I have ( Read more... )

so basically she believes us being apart is right, but i believe that us being together is right. so instead of trying to find a way for us to understand each other, which i believe would be fair, she opts for closing ourselves away from each other. it just hurts so much...so now, afraid of losing her completely i suggest the fact of being friends ( Read more... )

it's not gonna work out. it just won't. i broke down to her last night, but she wouldn't have it. she's made up her mind. I've made up my mind. We're both at 2 extremes right now. She says she can't stand hurting me, when clearly this is killing me. I don't get it. She wants to help me, but she doesn't put forth any effort. She keeps saying I'm ( Read more... )

i talked to kimberly, she still doesn't want to get back with me, sucks. i love her...i think i deserve another chance, but of course that's ultimately her decision. i miss her...can't stop, won't stop thinking about her. if you've somehow found my lj, love you - night.

slept for 15+ hrs...feel like crap. miss kimberly. really really want a cigarette, but i'm not letting myself. horrible.

this sucks....

so here's my day. never went to sleep last night so i stayed up doing absolutely nothing but what you've read in my recent posts, went to the Y at 5 to work out with austin...then came back home to do more of what i do. Went to class, and then i've been just sitting here really. I miss her so much. It's killing me...even though i don't think there' ( Read more... )

...i miss her.

still awake missing kimberly. My sleep habit is all messed up. I wish I could just get a decent night's rest. ah. I want to be able to tell Kimberly I love her again, and see that smile...I miss her.