Wow I havent posted i a really REALLY long time. Life is happening. My current dilema is that i dont really want to go to oregon, but i dont really see any other alternatives. I had wanted to rent a place with some friends but no-one seemed interested. Now, well now im kinsa tired of being homeless and have settled on moving in with family in ( Read more... )

i get excited because im figuring stuff out and i am thinking about how the chemicals are making me excited and the song says just breathe and i get excited because i am thinking about controlling the chemicals this is me manic and i panic and compensate (i could detatch from reality so easily) and get depressed and am mellow until i have a ( Read more... )

Hey I have a bunch of G-mail invites if you are my friend and need one let me know.

So pretty soon I'm gonna be out roughing it on the streets. *hesitant grin* If anyone has tips for vagabonding please let me know.

Maybe Im just a hypochondriac but lately I have been having a lot of pressure on my head and it makes it hard/ hurt to think or even just be. Im wondering if it might have something to do with getting hit by the car.

my dreams are not mine to have ( Read more... )

Does anyone ever fell like they are dying, not in a figurative sense, but physically. I can feel my body rotting from the inside out, especially my mind. Its really scary and cold. Maybe i have a degenerative disease *wry smile*. Some days though i feel great, I feel really alive. It seems that my day's outcome is determined at the beginning, and ( Read more... )

So a lot has happened since i last posted ( Read more... )

So much for this happy trend. It seems like my happiness is a bubble if I get too excited and try to do something big, it pops. I really wish D hadn't left. He is the only one who has any experience dealing with me depressed, But then he probably has his own shit right now. I dont feel like putting this shit on other people, because as much as they ( Read more... )

Now that I am slightly happier I think I am going to change my color scheme.
Being happy is good.