I'm starting to feel lonely. This really scares me. It's not so much that I'm afraid of a relationsihp either. I just know that I won't be geting in a decent relationship anytime soon, so I'm just going to end up liking someone. And with me being lonely, I'll find someone to like. I'll definitely find someone I SHOULDN'T like. Goddamn it. I' ( Read more... )

I think I might have my sex drive back. Amazing.

La vie est bizzare, non?

Wow, people just suck in general. I need sleep, I guess. Ugh. Nights suck. Spanish needs to start soon.

What an amazingly fucked up week! I really don't know what to think or say. I'm utterly speechless. Well, no sleep for me for a while.

Holy shit!

I crave so much! And they're all things I shouldn't crave. It's horrible ( Read more... )

Je suis deprimee. Quand il finira? Je veux quelqu'un. J'ai besion de quelqu'un. Je n'ai personne. Personne!

Why is it that when you get on a diet you feel more self conscious than before?

Merde.

C'est bizarre. Il sait. Comment? Quelquechose est aller sur. (Pas correctement, je sais) Je ne l'aime plus, je pense. Je me demande que il est pense!! J'espere j'ai sait. J'espere.

La vie est horrible! Je n'aime pas maintenant. Arret, s'il te plait. Je ne peux pas le faire! Je irrai comme avant. Je ne veux pas ca!

Ma famille... Je ne veux pas etre ici maintenant. J'ai besoin de etre seulement! J'ai besoin de oublie...

Eh. L'ecole. Merde.

What a night! On the way home, I enjoyed the clear night air, not too much humidity. I rolled down the windows to enjoy the warm night air that possessed a bit of a bite. With it I remember. I remember a time four years ago when I desperately attempted to lose away my growing insecurities. I remember an April 8th four years ago when I tried to ( Read more... )